How do I feel reaching the age of 31? I feel like a new me, a new era filled with happiness and fresh perspective. To live life to its full capacity and venture into self discovery. People will say I’m quite particular, drama queen and a temper addict, even if that’s all true; I have seen changes in the pursue of my happiness. Nonetheless, it was hard battling with things in my life that made me hold on and refuse to let go, constant rejection, that drained me physically and mentally. I thought people didn’t understand me, get me and well the simple truth is… I didn’t understand who Pamela was and how to deal with certain situations. It’s been quite a ride and finally I’m taking one step at a time and challenging myself to the person I know I can be, whilst learning how to handle rejection as things doesn’t always go as planned and not everyone will like you. I’m in the process of venturing into my path, expressing my passions through fashion in the attempt to be the best version I know I can be.
Life isn’t perfect, life isn’t easy, life is hard, but what keeps me feeling assured is that God has been through it all. Guiding me, lifting me when I felt at my worse. Everyone has battles to face and as I’m facing mine, head strong, working towards my passions. I will face it no matter the obstacles surrounding me. There will be tears, there will be longing, but what keeps me going is that fears that held me captive is finally being overcome little by little, day by day.
In order to move forward, you have to start from scratch again, however the irony is I’m finally happy, content and going after the things I want. I will shed tears before God, but then I get up, dry my tears and go about my day. Sometimes, you just need to cry when things just isn’t going as it should. Nothing comes easy and I’m learning each day to represent life with beautiful memories. To be brave even when life gets you down. My way of venting is by indulging in chocolate and lots of it, writing, sharing my love for fashion on the gram, it calms me and bring me so much joy. People enjoy different things and that’s my personal release. Everyone has their own story and that my darlings is why we are unique.
My story, my style